I have received a lot of support from people on here and I want to say thank you.

My emotional up and downs are horrible! But of course I want to keep you updated.

Wednesday night I woke up with super sharp cramps. They stuck around into Thursday and then I started feeling pressure "down there" too.

So I called in sick to my shift today so I could rest with my legs up. I went to see my GP and she referred me to the high risk clinic without waiting for me to be released from the IVF clinic. I'm waiting to hear from them but they'll get me in soon to follow me.

I also had a 2nd beta draw (but only because there was cause with the cramping apparently). I won't get the results until Monday as the doctor's office closes early today, but it's done so that's fine.
I'm taking it easy today and tomorrow (as best I can with a family function). I'm back to work on Sunday for 4 days and will see how I'm doing.

Hopefully all is okay but given my nasty history and the fact that my gut has never been wrong, I'm very anxious.

So, in keeping with my love of home pregnancy tests, and in the spirit of seeking solace, I took another digital pregnancy test. The conception indicator still said "2-3 weeks". Yes I KNOW that these things are not reliable. That's not the point.

The point is that last time I was pregnant it went up to "3+" the day before the beta test, which turned out to be 1449. This time it's not which tells me that the 762 from Wednesday has likely not doubled.

My symptoms are starting to fade. They are all there but not as strong as they were. I am also not nauseated at all anymore, which is not normal for my pregnancies.

My gut is telling me it's over. But there's nothing anyone can tell me at this point.

**Now, over all this, I have received amazing support from my online community. But please remember in offering your support that this is not my first pregnancy. I've been through 4 miscarriages and 1 chemical pregnancy.**

So after this, I don't think I'll ever be pregnant again. That's a very sobering thought.