So Upset

In August I told DH I wanted to go bowling with people for my birthday. I've reminded him of this several times and has not forgotten. How do I know? he's brought it up.

My birthday is on Thursday. Last night I asked what the plans were to celebrate and he's made NO PLANS!

He is horrible at Valentine's Day and I've given to accept that - but this is my birthday. I consider someone's birthday to be a very big deal. He does not. But he knows how I feel about it.

He never wants a fuss for his birthday, but I make one anyway. And he always loves it. For example, this year he got a set of golf clubs that wasn't cheap, everything that goes with a new golf set, and I arranged a surprise golf day with all his friends and had a dinner party for 10 ready when they were done. I invited all his friends, their wives and cooked for 2 days!

He loved every minute of it.

For me, on my birthday, we have an appointment  with the travel clinic to get our immunizations sorted out for Russia and we're doing our criminal record checks.

After I got upset at the lack of celebration he bought tickets to see a play, but seriously?? Seriously?!?!?

I couldn't feel less special right now. I've been through hell this year, I'm another year old without children and my husband can't even ask people to get together for my birthday. Aside from feeling like my husband doesn't appreciate me, it's embarrassing because people know it's my birthday and nothing is being done.

I could cry for days right now.