We are leaving in 3 days for Delhi! I am over the moon excited.
I'm nervous, but I'm ready.
We went shopping for the little things tonight - hand moisturizer, sanitizer, gum, eye drops, etc. A few more things and we'll be set to go.
Tomorrow night we are going out for Indian food. I've never had Indian food - how crazy is that? I'm going to India! apparently, though, it's super easy to be gluten free in India so I am thrilled about it.
I can't believe we're doing this. I can't believe I'm hiring someone from another country to carry my baby. It's all very surreal. A couple of nights ago I had a a minor panic attack about the whole thing. But I think the grandness of this venture is hitting me.
And for the first time in a l o n g time I have hope.
And this hope come from an online friend, A. A is so supremely optimistic that has worn off on me. I have heard of things like that happening but I was beyond skeptical. Seriously? Positive thinking wore off on me! This woman is amazing - seriously. She's incredible. She gave me hope. I am actively hoping for embryo success.
This better fucking work.